Post birthday blues....not much happened, Spent it with parents and other family members. Nobody I've told my birthday to even acknowledged it yesterday. I am just invisible...insignificant. I dont matter any to the world. Why wont you see me?

This is a short but sweet one. It's been forever since I wrote anything. I hope with the coming of the new year...this will be one of my resolutions, to write more. This one hit me in the middle of the night. I wrote it in 15 minutes but hey...it is short lol

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I Grieve

My faith has been taxed,
I no longer believe.

I have given hope the axe,
I am no longer decieved.

Now I must face the facts,
Now, alone, I must grieve.

Copyright 2004

Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
And the lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
I held so dear.

I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
You'll slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed


Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't ya come round here
And tell me I told you so...

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So dont come around here
And tell me I told you so

Could we all be dreaming
Of the suffering forming clouds on our feelings
Could the wars be in our heads
Could our children be safe in their beds
Oh, where will I be when I wake up?

Oh, will I be reurning home
Or to the questions burning a hole in my heart that is turning to stone
When I wake up
Where will I return?

Could this be our punishment?
The floods and fires, the bombs and liars
For our Mother's discontent
Could production be a slave?
To the devil on a full rampage
Oh where will I be when I wake up?

Oh, will I be reurning home
Or to the questions burning a hole in my heart that is turning to stone
When I wake up
Where will I return?

Where will I return?

Oh, will I be reurning home
Or to the questions burning a hole in my heart that is turning to stone
When I wake up
Where will I return?

Do you remember me,
I'm just a shadow now.
This is where I used to be,
Right here beside you.
Sometimes I call your name,
High on a summer breeze.
What I would give,
To feel the sunlight on my face.
What I would give,
To be lost in your embrace.

I've fallen from a distant star,
Came back, compelled because I love.
I'm caught between two different worlds,
I long for one more night of love.

Do you believe in dreams,
That's how I found you.
But I can't be with you,
Till you take a leap of faith.
What I would give,
To feel the sunlight on my face.
What I would give,
To be lost in your embrace.

I've fallen from a distant star,
Came back, compelled because I love.
I'm caught between two different worlds,
I long for one more night of love.

Walking barefoot on the shore
Hypnotized by the ocean roaring
Thoughts of you drifting in and out
Never fails to calm me down

I still see your eyes when light hits the water
And I've never seen a color so beautiful
So blue... Ocean blue

I keep moving to the distant sounds
And visions of you drifting in and out
Clouds mixing with the sand and the sea
Sounds get carried on the ocean breeze

I still hear your voice from across the horizon
And wasn't that you walking into the shadows?

In time I'll believe it was just and illusion
In time I'll believe it was only a dream

I still see your eyes when light hits the water
And I've never seen a color so beautiful
I still hear your voice from across the horizon
And wasn't that you walking into the shadows?

In time I'll believe it was just and illusion
In time I'll believe it was only a dream
Till then I will breathe you in from the ocean
And walk with the waves rolling under my feet

it's a weird game.
i'm lonely without skin.
no end to begin and only
your mind to hide in.
i nudge life.
like an unborn child. a dream
inside but now i live behind your eyes.
i'm uninvited. and i'm only
a memory that comes through.

i'm living in your dreams.
i'm where you cannot be.
i'm way out of your reach.

i'm living in your dreams.
i'm where you cannot see.
is it you or is it me?

i can't protect what you can't forget.
but now i live behind your eyes.
you recognize me as only a memory
that comes through.

i'm living in your dreams.
i'm where you cannot go.
beyond everything you know.
i'm living in your dreams.
you won't find me anywhere.
i've vanished in the air.

Like A Shadow On The Wall
If You Come or If You Go
Who You Are, Nobody Knows
Can`t Get Behind…Incognito

You Are Capturing My Soul
If I Want, Or If I Don`t
Not protected by The Law
But Still… Incognito

Like A Shadow On The Wall
Free Access Around the World
Who You Are, Nobody Knows
Eyes Without Face…. Incognito.

In The Shadow, In The Light

I promise you, for all my life
I’ll be Always on your side
In the shadow, in the light.

I’ll follow you, wherever life goes
But I’ll always be aside
In the shadow, in the light.

But if we don’t understand…
Hell is happy, heaven is sad
And that’s the result of our brain…
Insane…

Caravan of life
By day and by night
Every tile’s a part of life
If it’s shadow, or if it’s light

I promise you, even when the tide is high
I’ll be always on your side
In the shadow, in the light

Following The Sun, To Find The One
Who`s Giving You The Wings To Fly
Following The Sun, The Golden One
Losing Sense For Space and Time

Can You Feel The Waves Of Life
(Can You) Hear The Sigh Of Love
Do You Believe In It ?

Following The Sun, Just For The One
Till You`ll Find The Door You Thought
Following The Sun, Like Everyone
Searching For A Sign Of Hope

Have A Look Up To The Sky
See The Billion Stars Above
Cos (Maybe) On One Of Them
You`ll Spend Your Further Life